todd has been convinced that lily is going to show up early for a while now. but i really don't think she will come anytime before her original due date (august 13th) and i'm perfectly happy if she waits until the 20th or so. as todd mentioned, are are still not completely moved in. i have TONS of stuff to do before she gets here so she can take her sweet time. on the other hand, i am semi-disappointed that she has dropped because now i have an almost constant pressure and random contractions. i feel like i have a little freddy kruger trying to claw her way out.
the idea of two children is definately scary in a way. i am so amazingly thankful for the help we'll be getting from todd's folks and my mom right after lily is born. i have recently realized that the idea of a newborn doesn't scare me at all. i used to think it would be easier when connor got older because he would be able to get things for himself once he was mobile. he can pick up after himself, and i wont' have to. and once he can communicate better, he won't be as frustrated, making things easier for us also. but the older he gets, the more i realize this is not true. parenting never gets easier, just harder. now that he is mobile and can get things for himself, he just gets into everything he's not supposed to! and sure he can pick up after himself a bit. but he doesn't. ha. and i know once he can communicate better he will still be frustrated when the answer is "no." then i think about teenagers. wow. it literally will not get better from here on out. haha. i love parenting, i do. but i guess it struck me by surprise now that i've realized how much i'm not just raising children, but raising a parent as well. i learn something new everyday.
well todd says my post is too long so i'll leave it at that.
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